CHANGE IS NEVER EASY
Updated: Feb 9
Have you ever had the unexpected happen and take you completely off track from your goals?
Two years ago my husband and I set out to launch Rich by Intention. In mid-2018, we were just off the excitement of paying off our 6 figure student loan debt one year into our marriage. We were designing our website, creating dope content, recording podcast episodes, and then the most life-changing event happened, I found out I was pregnant with our first child. Talk about the unexpected...kinda.
We had been wanting to start a family, but somehow, we were still hit with a surprise that we were actually indeed pregnant. We were joyful, excited, and extremely grateful that we were going to bring a life into the world.
The morning sickness started to set in pretty soon after we found out and I was in the full throes of pregnancy, with aches, pains, and fatigue...can you relate? Let’s just say all the work we put into RBI was put on hold. We made the decision to put our energy that year into bringing a healthy and happy baby into the world.
Delivering my baby girl was the most surreal thing I have ever experienced, there is no way to put into words the feeling of holding my little girl for the first time. After my delivery, I was in a lot of pain from my C-section and had trouble regulating my blood pressure, which resulted in me seeing specialists and having to go to the trauma unit at my local hospital one week after I delivered my daughter.
Now looking back, I didn’t realize how much pregnancy and now, motherhood would change me. Being a mother for the past year has been the greatest joy of my life, but I wouldn't be honest if I didn’t say that my body and mind felt different after giving birth, and that weighed on me greatly.
Balancing my new role as a working mother was difficult. When I went back to work I didn’t feel like me, I didn't feel as sharp as I once was, it was hard to find my words (mommy brain?) and I was away from my little girl for nearly 10 hours a day. On top of that, I had a new boss to impress...It...was..hard.
I am now in a place where I am getting back to me, albeit a slightly altered, less organized version of me. I have come to terms that now that I am a mother, I am different and that is OK. How can you not be different when you have the well-being of a tiny human on your brain 24/7?
Change is never easy and accepting change is even harder, but the goal is to always keep moving forward.